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Saturday, January 28, 2012

Much of the Same

I want to calw my eyes out
All these people around me I am starting to doubt.

Do these people really get me?
from what they're saying I just want to flee.

Problems, Problems I feel I create.
This pattern I see I'm really starting to hate.

I am always at fault I'm always wrong.
I am beginning to hate the tune of this song.

I bond with those I feel chemistry and strength
I try to keep those relationships to the longest lengths.

People either get me or not
And those who dont--
our relationship ends like a short sentance
with a dot.

Period. There is not more.
They'll never get to my core.
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