Calm Collected...
But feeling rejected
This feeling comes quick
Its the coping skill i've picked.
It works well-
Makes me feel like im under a spell.
Why can't I use something good.
I know deep w/in myself that I should.
The question that swirls around in my head is:
Why can't I choose something more positive instead?
Will I ever go to the side of the good?
To me it feels as impossible as passing through would
What is my potential?
Knowing it seems essential.
The cigarette smoke stills runs high through my throat
So I'm still trapped in an oreless boat.
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