I just want to get away from it all
But please the numbers on the scale still have to fall
I want it I don't
These rooms smell stale
urging me to get up and bail
bail from my chains bail from control
Bail me out of this place that is just a lull.
Never good enough, not sick yet
but i bet if you let me loose 5 more pounds ill be set.
I know, I know... its never enough.Not enough-
love, money, pounds, or bones.
I want it all, I want it now
till then ill sit on this ship and dream of sinking below its bow.
Because then the pain will be gone
And I wont have to sit awake while my muscles ache-
--watching a new day dawn.
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